Emptiness

Emptiness is a timeless feeling,
It is comforting in a time of loneliness,
It wraps itself around the unsuspecting,
It understands and knows all,
I know emptiness.
Now more than ever emptiness envelopes me,
I try time and again to break free,
To get away from the virus of emptiness,
And as I do I am reminded by it,
Reminded by those who are close,
Those that chase away emptiness.
Emptiness is loneliness caused by lack of need,
I need to be needed,
I like to think everyone does,
Without being needed,
I will simply cease to exist.
Existence is so debatable,
I can be here and not exist,
I can walk and breathe,
I do not have to die to stop existing,
Without existing my life is worthless,
But I cannot take it,
That would be against me,
I cannot live without existence.
Is this how people die?
Is this whats next for me?
Its certainly something I have not experienced

~Celeste